dyad by jamie paige
all of the constant companions album is amazing, but dyad is a personal favorite with the breathy laughter and joyous running leaping frolicking dancing feeling it has of declaring love.
jamie paige wrote a behind the scenes post about the song here, explaining explicitly how the song is "a love song for the creative impulse" and where it would take paige. the use of vocal synths in this album is a means of connection and resistance against loneliness, and a lot of the worries in the album and dyad itself are about interacting with the world as an artist and the process of making art.
this means a lot to me! i only started actively putting myself out into the world as an artist within the past 3 years of writing this. i relate a lot to the motivation of loneliness, a common theme within my social groups of predominantly shut-ins or social outcasts who spend a lot of time online.
here are the lyrics:
we've spent a lifetime apart so i keep a record in my heart of all the waiting in the wings i've done a wretched little tale i've spun because its everyday i'm waiting for more a message from the opposite shore some coded beeps that i can never unwind and i'm not even sure that you mind
it's a repetition every day just waiting on the words to say god i'm desperate to hear your voice i wish i even had a damn choice
'cause when i stare across the gap between our hearts I WANNA MEET YOU IN THE MIDDLE i wanna meet you in the middle
baby, do you know what you wanna hear? 'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear or you can sit around, watch it disappear (watch the truth, it breaks in two) but you don't even know what you wanna say it only takes an instant to slip away but if you grab a hold, make a grand escape (one to two, just me and you)
singing dream together, we can dream together we can fantasize about the fairer weather if we stay together, we can stay together hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather dream together, we can dream together baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever so we stay together, we should stay together hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
i've been wanting for a shot that's sharp so i paint a target on my heart hoping bow and arrow strikes me true so i can throw it back to you but baby aim is all i got to show an imitation cupid's bow and i'm a fool without a firing zone i just don't want to be alone
now i'm walking 'round the corner again but i don't want the story to end god i'm desperately falling so far i'll fall until it breaks my heart
and though i'm staring out the hole between my lungs I WANNA CLOSE IT JUST A LITTLE so can we close it just a little
baby, do you know what you wanna hear? 'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear or you can sit around, watch it disappear (watch the truth, it breaks in two) but you don't even know what you wanna say you'll wait until your life starts to slip away but if you grab a hold, let the message play (one to two, just me and you)
singing dream together, we can dream together we can fantasize about the fairer weather if we stay together, we can stay together hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather dream together, we can dream together baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever so we stay together, we should stay together hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
but when i stare across the gap between the sprawl and all the little things the borders break and fall away to order from the disarray i understand what i should know i knock an arrow on my bow and fire across the evermore i shoot to hit the grand restore and fall at last to land between your arms
I THINK I LOVE YOU JUST A LITTLE or maybe more than just a little